On Feb 2nd 2013, I invited game designer, writer, editor and otherwise swell guy Ryan Macklin to meet me in a Google+ Hangout to share how he dealt with his Inner-Demons. Afflicted with an ailment that causes him chronic pain and anxiety issues that brought him even more pain, Ryan’s been brought to the brink. He’s seriously considered the worst and planned for it.
The following is a recording of the 55 min discussion Ryan and I had on the subject. It talks about suicidal thoughts, medication, toxic environments, the challenges of health insurances (and lack thereof) and many other things. The mood ranges from informal banter to emotional sharing as Ryan digs deep to relate some painful details of his recent past. All’s not doom and gloom as we end up showing how nerdy we are by geeking out about TV shows and tech devices.
The whole thing lasts 55 minutes. It’s unedited, the lighting’s bad and we obviously follow no script. But we make it up with being open and honest about our conditions and how we try to deal with them. I hope you enjoy it. You.Are.Not.Alone.
Let me know if you think I should do it again with other guests in the future. That could become a semi-regular thing and I’d love to talk about it more. We need to be less isolated and more open about it. We can still function and for many of us, the broken bits in our minds open up some incredibly creative channels others can’t tap into as easily.
Please note that I shall host a similar form of talk at Pax East at the end of March. I’ll post more details as soon as I have a date.
N.B.: Given the delicate nature of the subject, I will be watchful of comments. Please be sensitive and cordial… you usually are but I’m playing it safe.